~enactment of a drama wilted bitch~

Sunday, August 31, 2003

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dear blogby...

juz got back.. argghh tired & sleepy. had a great time outside. went out wif edd at last. had dinner and chilled at esplanade.
the atmostphere was goOd, kinda cool wif d sea breeze and all..
had mOcha earlier so i guess i'll be knoCkin off soon.

guess wot.. ma oLd seC flame juZ msg me earlier... all bcOs of edd... siaO... maleh tol nak layan tapi frenz pe pasal kan, it's fine wif me. it's been a long long time sinCe i spoke to him. aiNt it funny.. seriously i felt awkward. sO touchy of him but oh well, time flew. pple chanGe. i change tOo. fer d sake of fwens, am fine wif it. wonder how it'll b if i meet him... haha

cheErs mate.. dah bagOs ako tak boOze tonite.. thanx to edd

nyah.. wer d hell r u? called u neva pick up d foNe... *sigH* u game fer d session 2moro? b waitin fer yr call aite.

sissy's back in d piCture.... he acted weird since i'm out last fri.. hmm well he's alive aite.

~o~
sPendin ma time.. wOtchin d days go by..
*muaCks* niteZ pepens

.pinked pencil. 11:12 PM
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.her faculty for composing words of wisdom.

time mite lead me to nower,
fate mite break me apart..
but i'll always be tanKful dat once,
along ma life's jOurney..
i found sum1 like u..

~o~
ku doa kau hadir
permaisuri mahligai ku
hidup mati cinta kita bersama

sayang..

.pinked pencil. 1:01 PM
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ako dah agak musti dia carik ako nyer... smalam tak carik ako langsong. katanya dia nak blaR, blaR gi mane pon ako tak tau.
ni hah idop lagik dektuh... ish ish ish..

*siGh*
hidOp penoh ngan benda mePek!!!

~o~
nantok

.pinked pencil. 1:22 AM
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.her faculty for composing words of wisdom.

dear blogby, it's sat nite and m at hOme..
ako jadi budak baik ah... muehehhehe

m still editing ma blog... ceH...
bengap tol!

~o~
niteZ pepens

.pinked pencil. 12:36 AM
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Thursday, August 28, 2003

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oh mY gaWd.. now i'm smeLLin d peRfume. who daT??? in ma oFFice? *cRazee*

i muZ b dreaMin... *yawnZ*

.pinked pencil. 1:39 PM
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suddenly i tot of sum1... i misS dat sum1... sum1 who is...

baby love
sumtimes it's hard fer me to tell u wot i'm thinkin of
so i try to find a waY dat i can shoW u luv
wot u mean to me

it's not enuff to give u everitin dat u were eveR dreamin of
i cOuld neva find a way dat i could pay u luV
fer all d thinGs u do

cOs wen my life getS craZee
d onLy one whO comforts me is u...

wen i'm feelin all aLone
wen i'm seaRchin fer sum1 i can ruN to
i reaCh fer u
wen i need a hanD to hold
or a plaCe wer i can feel wot luV can do
i reaCh fer u

neediN u
s sumtin dat i've really gotten used tO
i can't imaGine bein here with nO one else
no one buT u

wot i found
s it dOesnt get much betta den wen ur arOund
havin u s all i reaLLy need wen i get dOwn
u puLL me thru

cOs wen my life getS craZee
d onLy one whO comforts me is u...

~o~
i reaCh fer u *sObs*

.pinked pencil. 1:31 PM
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.her faculty for composing words of wisdom.

dear bloGby..
it's thUrsday oredi and i'm dead tired.

.pinked pencil. 1:22 PM
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Wednesday, August 27, 2003

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deaR blogby..

akO baru jer sampei keje. biasa ah lambat2 tidak gituh. bOss dah outZ liao fer meeting sblom ako sampei. nantoK rabak ah. ako ley tertidO dalam mrt.. ish ish ish buRok bebenOr, hilang gehLemer ako kejap. tapi takpe janji rambOt maintain.

*siGh* damn fuCkin bored siak. ada keje tapi malas. nak bfast ke tak nak eh. bobal sendrik lagik ako. hmm apa ako nak buat nari... *gaRok poyot*

haha akO dapat *huG* and *kiSh* ah tadik malam. wwwwweeeeeeeeee..... *geDebUk* ceh tersungkOr plak! ngah tunggu *huG* ngan *kiSh* lama2 nie... i sittin nite nite vaitin kissin givin... achOOooOOhh...

~o~
bobal sowang kah akO lagik?
nabeY sumer buat haluan senDrik skarang. ko memanG takLey harap ah cheetah~!

.pinked pencil. 9:55 AM
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Tuesday, August 26, 2003

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nari ako sampei keje lambat. sengaja bangOn lambat sebab tak puas tido. ni pon mater cam kelat kelat pisanG gituh. haha buC gi keje naik bas tuwon bas naik mrt tuwon mrt.. makLumlah bas 520 dari yishun dah mampOs so ako kena lah belajaR merangkaK naik mrt. kalaO dulu lambat camne pon ada gak bas yang akO ley kejar, siap timing lagik. tak taU lah asal TIBS gi mampOskan bas tuh. akO raser jorang memang dah tak sebulu lagik kot.. pe nak buat, tunggu ah ako dapat mataiR kaya yang ley anta ako pi balik keje.
eh kaLao dah dapat mataiR kaya bakpeh keje kan.. suping ah hari2 beh tak taO.

~o~
haRi ini kaO datang riang tersenYum buat ku giRang...

psstt girang tu abekenDe ah?
*garok poyot*

.pinked pencil. 3:38 PM
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Monday, August 25, 2003

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barue alik barue alik barue alik...
nari ako gunting rambot cam jantan.. ah kengkawan ako dah nenok, sok koligs ako plak nenok. pimp dah nenok gambo ako, ceH...
tembam mampOs.. tapi takpe rambot ley tumbOh alik.
mama bising, ader ke dia suwoh ako simpan rambOt panjang balik??? gilak! ako rimas. jadik jantan pon lagik baik!
tapi takper, yang penting ramBot ako, so ako pe suka ah.
hmm luser ako nak tayang rambOt pat sapa plak eh.. ader ke patOt mama suwoh ako botakkan truS? ako buat kang sume larie.. ish..
sok keje, nak pakai bajOo apa seh. nenok wOdroB bowing ah, balik2 bajoO tuh. kang ako pakai bajoO kawin2 kang tak guner.
hmm pakai suaR ah tapi ako maleh tol ah nak gOsok bajOo. kuCing ako takley harap, bukan nak tolon gosokkan... ceH!
mata pon dah caM pekat2 kicap gituh. cukOp time tido pon cantek. hmm nak scan gambo2 lamer maleh plak. ish...
sungGoh membOsankan. ako raser kalao ako pakai suaR beSo ngan t-shiRt besO, sebijik maCam buC. hmm satu hari musti try ah pastu ako kuar ngan piMp... hehhe apa meka akan kata??
kita tunggu dulu.. tido ah tido.

~o~
akO tetaP akO dan aKo adalah aKo..

.pinked pencil. 11:17 PM
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Sunday, August 24, 2003

.her faculty for composing words of wisdom.

if 2 heaRts r meant to be,
nO matter how long iT takes,
hOw far theY gO,
how toUgh it seems...
faTe will bRing theM togetHer tO share a life fOreva...

~o~
dO u beLieVe in loneLineSs..
i dO nOw..

.pinked pencil. 3:18 PM
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Thursday, August 21, 2003

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setelah sekian lama aku menghilang, aKhirnya tOra kembali dengan permainan nya bOm tangaN! yaKddeeShhHH...
dah tak tau apa nak tulis. bLog dah macam tak terUrus, tagboD ilang trus.... giLak! bosan soL!

hmm nari balik jumpe pimp, had dinner pastu balik. naik cab, makuihhh abg teKsi tu pe bawak ley uwek ako! dah lah satu teksi baU lemon, pekat lak tuh, sakit idong aku menusuk ke otak. dia pe bawak 120km/h berdesut cam nak kejar hape. tapi baguih lah sebab aku sampei cepat skit. balik trus mandik. dah penat mampos nie. tu pon masih ada hati nak update blog. rimas ah.

jOm pi tidoQ!
~o~
sOmat malem...

.pinked pencil. 11:25 PM
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Monday, August 18, 2003

.her faculty for composing words of wisdom.

kini aku paSrah dengan segalanya

.pinked pencil. 10:21 AM
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Saturday, August 16, 2003

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baru nari aku masok net... takot kalao2 ada caCing terbiaR pat sini. korang2 nyer bLog jadik apa pon ako tak tau.. cam takde penGhuni gituh. aku jer yang sunyi sepi pat sini. nari pon takde plan, ujan, malas. ah datang aku pe malas nak kuar malas ah nie. smalam cam owang giler aku try betolkan pc pimp. tetap tak bley jugak. all bcOs of dat farkin wOrms... punat ah! aku givap, dah tak tau apa nak buat lagik.
cam rimas pon ada pat umah. hmm wonderin wot magerLs are doin. it's been a long time since we all went out 2gether... ntahlah apa kena ngan jorang pon aku tak tau. sesatuH perangai. dah tak cam dulu lagi tak tau apsal.. wateva lah. aku cuma heRan jer. aniwei hope dey r happy wif woteva dey r in to nOw ah.

~o~
dah maGhrib... bubbye

.pinked pencil. 7:16 PM
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Thursday, August 14, 2003

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I MAY BE GONE...
4 a min
4 an hour
4 a day
4 a month
but i'll alwaYz b here 4 u...
i may not be abLe
2 aLways saY
gud mOrnin
gud eVenin
gud niTe
but i'll never saY goOdbye...

~o~
mOrning pepenS

.pinked pencil. 9:23 AM
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Wednesday, August 13, 2003

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naRi ako keje. sampai je keje nasib baik meja ako tak serak, ada kang akO menyumpah kat owang. tarok beg, dudOk on pc... makaih tepon ada msg, ako dengaQ. ah maLas nak return kol, gi mampOs ah. tengOk muka bOs ako, ceH, maleh nak caKap. dia kata nak kuar gi belik bfaSt. janji dia balik opiS sua, mtg koL 10pagi beb, ada kang ako terkejar kejaR carik dia, bukan tak pernah buat keje boDoh camni.

koLig ako plak soYal pagik nie. pasaL projector pon ley gadOh. mana akO tao dia dah book projeCtor sedangkan ako pe loG boOk takde nama dia. pasai apa, dia cuma tuliS nama pat in/out list jer, pat reserved dates tak taRok. nak tak nak akO ngamOk ah, pe lagik ako ley buat. cam ako nak cepuk jer. suaRa ako dah lah cam jaNtan, ada je ako jadi kambinG maSok opiS.. tapi takley, kambiNg tu laki ako kan??? muahahah.. tapi laki ako tak keje opiS... hrmmm

aniwei ako nak pi buat keje. jaNgan nari ako rasa cam sOYal lagik sua lah...
kOrang, bakpe ah? ako rasa lagik mulia ako tulis maYu.. bukan apa, muDah "diKhadaM"..peaCe

.pinked pencil. 10:47 AM
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Tuesday, August 12, 2003

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nari aku sakit so ako dok umah ajer. dah gi buat date ngan dOc, dah mamam Obat tinggal nak bObOk jer tapi kompinter nie panggil2 ako suwOh belai doK ngadap dia dOplopatjam. poyot plak dah kenyaNg, sakit gi dOc sendRik, masak seNdriK, makan seNDrik, hidOp sendRik...
aku ngah tunggu time nOneng nie.. bukak eRkon pat bilek pon cantik ah pastu membuTer... tepon tolak tepi, hp off, jadi takde orang kacaO..
beSok kalaO tak baik gak ako terjOn..

.pinked pencil. 2:32 PM
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Monday, August 11, 2003

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hari ni ako rasa cam sOyal. ntah lah, keadaan sekeliling, owang sekeliling, sume lah sume termasOk korang2 sume ah cam sOyal... baik ko baik ako, baik dia, baik meka dan kluarga meka. pasal lah! tu tak bley ni tak bley! giler! pagik2 dah perangai! hari senin sumore! fuck lah!
dah lah ngantuk, kena owang bebel pat tinger, darah ako naik siak! plak tuh jenjalan mata ako tetiber sakit, lagik cam pantat! sume tak kena. nari sapa langgar wire, mesti jadik punyer...

.pinked pencil. 10:34 AM
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*siGh* *siGh* *siGh* *siGh* *siGh* *siGh* *siGh*
*siGh* *siGh* *siGh* *siGh* *siGh* *siGh*
*siGh* *siGh* *siGh* *siGh**siGh*

.pinked pencil. 10:19 AM
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Sunday, August 10, 2003

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mama woke me up dis morning. supos to go to ma cuz's wedding. papa quoted "10 tiga suku kluar". it toOk me a while to understand wot he said. duh..
juz gOt back, checked ma sN at anakmaYu.. pimp said he saw ma piCs der, budak dah pandai ah.
need to change, haf ma long bath, rimas siak pakai baju kawin2 nie.. budduh!

wOnderin wot magerLz r doin... it's gonna b a long day 2mOrO... life suX.
anyway, i miSs ya gerLz... *muaCksSs*

.pinked pencil. 7:40 PM
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Saturday, August 09, 2003

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juz came back from pimp's plaCe. out partyin last nite.
too muCh aLcohoL.. grOggy... gygrOg...
if only d nite was long, i wOuld haf partied till i drop...

it's haRd to hold on.. buT i haf to let it go..

~o~
nitez pepens

.pinked pencil. 11:30 PM
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Friday, August 08, 2003

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Never say I love you
If you don't really care...
Never talk of feelings
If they aren't really there...
Never hold my hand
If you mean to break my heart...
Never say forever
If you ever plan to part...
Never look into my eyes
If you are telling me a lie...
Never say hello
If you think you'll say goodbye...
Never say that I'm THE one
If you dream of more than me...
Never lock up my heart
If you don't have the key...

.pinked pencil. 4:53 PM
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Thursday, August 07, 2003

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sumtimeS i fergOt to say "hOw r u?"
sumtimeS i even miSs to say "heLLo"
buT u r not fergOtten coS i stiLL reMembeR to meSsaGe u...

~o~
niteZ pepens

.pinked pencil. 11:08 PM
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.her faculty for composing words of wisdom.

late fer werk again!!! boss out of town.. *siGh* lookin at ma wOrkload, sapa nak gi toLon nie...
m siNking...

~o~
mOrning pepens

.pinked pencil. 9:55 AM
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Wednesday, August 06, 2003

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dear blogby... mOrnin...
rise & shine, tho it's a bit cloudy out der. again overslept, late fer werk. so sleepy.. got to start werkiN. it's only wed *siGh*. got to attend course later part of d day, lagi bOring...

~o~
gerls, u der? m faRkin sick siak!!!

.pinked pencil. 10:03 AM
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Tuesday, August 05, 2003

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if i had neva met u, i wont like u...
if i had neva liked u, i wont luv u...
if i had neva loved u, i'd neva miss u...
but i did, i do and i always will...

.pinked pencil. 12:51 PM
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deaR bloGby...
why life s so complicated now? why did He let meH meet him in d fiRst plaCe? did i ask fer it?
it has alwaYz been abt meH and pimp but eversince miRacle happened, everytin's so complicated and it's drivin me craZee. why did he enter ma life at a later part? wOt haS he got dat makeS meH fall fer hiM? wOt s sO farkin special abt hiM? he's suMone, yes i admit, but wOt s it actuaLLy???
shit happens along d way, He made us meet. tO show meh wOt luv s all abt? to make sumone knOck his head? to refleCt maself in d miRRor? to maKe me act wisely? *gaWd* tis s so painfuL. m clueleSs, no doubt i luV pimp mOre.
pimp's evertin to me, yeaH but nobody's purrfeCt. he can maKe me laff and and he caN make me sad too at timeS. but paTience did lead us to sumtin. sumTin wiC i hope fer, ma dreaMz... d visioNs used to be vaGue but will be cleaR soOn as time passes by? i haf no anSwer to dat.
fallin in loVe, havin mushy feeLinz wif sumOne else s not eaSy s it seems. beeN tellin maself to let gO but didnt try harD enuff. yeah i knoe m askin fer trOuble but wen it cOmes to feelinz, i cant lie to maseLf. tryin ma beSt to keep ma bLardy relationship. upS and dOwns s usual but i can c d chanGes. but s dat wOt i really wanT? dis waR, i've wOn d battle. m prOud but i cant be selfisH...
hopefuLLy dis doubtneSs i haf in me will die soOn. it muZ end. m not gettin yOunger ya knoe. life has got to go on...
*siGh* do u belieVe in loneLineSs?? i do now...

haiz blogby.. it's gettin laTe... gotta caC ma beautY sehlip.

.pinked pencil. 1:49 AM
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.her faculty for composing words of wisdom.

*yawNz*
~o~
mushi mushi... niteZ blogbY...

.pinked pencil. 12:31 AM
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Monday, August 04, 2003

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m totally upset wif everything...

.pinked pencil. 3:18 PM
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.her faculty for composing words of wisdom.

woke up, andik, akai ajoO, makeup, kuar.. run!! run!! before i miss ma buS... boaRded d bus, sleep ZzZZzzZ.. nantok siak! reached office *yawn*... look at ma boss *yawn*... look at ma woC *yawn*...
m hungry..

.pinked pencil. 9:46 AM
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Sunday, August 03, 2003

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hmm m siCk n tired of all these nonsence. i truly love him but it seems dat every single shit i do s wrong... m becOming more like him. m scared... m cOnfused aite. wen s dis gonna end... arrgghhh even smaRties dun haf d answer! pantat tol ah!

We walked hand in hand under d moOnlite by d beaCh. I snuggled my head on his shoulder. Ahh heaVen. Been waitin fer dis moment to be wif him. We stopped walking, I was startled. He faced me, carressed my cheek and gave me a kiss on my lips. I was dumbfounded by his move. Is dis fer real? After waiting so long fer his love... I smiled and looked away shyly. He slowly put his hands on my shoulders and hugged me. I felt good in his arms. I haf been wanting to tell him dat he s my life but I don't haf d guts. He has always been my inspiration. How do I live without him? Maybe m juz confused on wots gonna happen next. My heartbeat was fast, I felt d aldrenaline rushing thru my body. Then he let go of me and lifted my head. He whispered into my ears saying, "I love you"... Is dis only d beginning???

~o~
niteZ pepens

.pinked pencil. 1:28 AM
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Friday, August 01, 2003

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if ya like weeD den ya know da rOutine
roll dat shit, lite dat shit, smoke dat shit
puff puff den pasS dat shit

~o~
mOrning pepens
sum thinGs are betta left unsaid...

.pinked pencil. 9:45 AM
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.shay annaxon.
crab sign who is barely 18
emotional attitude mood-swinger bitch
ranked a crazy vain pot
in lovenest wif her pimp
whose dotes on family
topped off a pampered daughter
~married but available~


.myths.
impressions that last will be loved
women's best tears are diamonds
shopping has always been a passion
aromatherapy soothes the mind
beauty never fails a digital camera
pink is out-of-fashion
rock never dies

~denotes the butterfly effect~

~shared confessions~

aiman|| aishah|| ann|| arieS|| cikinaT|| crab|| crabJR|| deeanna|| dubbie|| dwan|| esque|| fad|| ggi|| iszzie|| janesquire|| jenny|| lezzie|| mat lanon|| mie|| ninie|| nouf|| peachy|| pinkphat|| pinkyrin|| rbw|| ska|| sue|| sugababe|| twinkz|| yatikus||

.current mode.

.current flavor.

.current prints.

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